"Dilemma"..it feels lyk some1 is talking about me
Well from the time immemorial or shud i say, since the beginning of the dawn for me i had always been full of choices. Some may take it as, "what luck" but the truth is something different, whenever u have choices to make u become dumbfound as to which way to go and that as a result makes u indecisive as u always have to consult people for the same.
But if on the other hand u dnt have any extra choice u r atleast sure of ur move and don't require any consultancy.
Now discussing 1 of my ongoing dilemmas', as i mentioned in my prev blog that m working in FIS and also appeared for CAT this tym and even expecting calls from the same. Now here comes my dilemma; my company (FIS) has its base mostly onsite and they handle all the new projects from abroad itself. And now after working for long six months (mite b a short period for sme but not for me) i realized ther is certainly lot of possibility for me to go abroad if stay in the company for an year or 2.
"What to do now?" a very common qustion has sprang up in front of me again.
Shud i stay in the company and commit myself to work or go for my post graduation.
Shud i prepare for my GD/PI or let everything go the way it is going. Shud i again consult people or decide for myself. These qustions are again making be agonized.
If i want to discuss this with smbody than who's that somebody? Generally it's my bro who i feel is the apt person to consult but for how long; my dilemmas' are never ending. Sometimes i feel m i still not mature enough or grown up to keep my dilemmas to myself and become decisive.
I guess its me only who's responsible for my sufferings bcoz until and unless i take decisions by myself and don't take assistance from others, i won't feel that m grown enough, but i know i am and its time for me to show, to pretend that i m good enough in taking my own decisions.
I am the qustion and i m the answer
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
CAT 2008
It was my 2nd attempt for CAT. Yes i did appeared for CAT last tym also but failed to get thru any good B-School (limited seats u know). The only thing that bothered me last tym wen cat result was out was that i filled nearly 10-12 colleges under CAT and got call from none. For a minute i was dismayed wen i saw my result but u know u will always find people around u who can boost u up by scoring less than u. CAT 2007 was lyk a catastrophe to me.
The result for other colleges was also disclosed one by one and fortunately i got call from 2 symbiosis college. But being a fresher I was not even able to get thru these 2 avg colleges (u r free to call it an excuse bcoz it is :))
Finally I joined Fidelity Information Services, bangalore and decided to gain work ex and then do MBA; for it was the only option left. Then came CAT 2008, don't know y but my perseverance was lost and i didn't prepared much for the xam and gave it on the prescribed day. Was not expecting much after i left the center but after hearing the views of my frienz and people around me i turned optimistic (not very but yes i was now a bit hopeful).
CAT result was out and atleast i scored more than wat i did last yr :).Even unlike last yr i had not filled many colleges but this tym was expecting call from a college or two. And can u believe i have already got calls from 2 colleges and expecting a call from 1 more. But this tym i need to convert it at any cost for my excuse of fresher has already lost its validity...lol
PS: Its the state of mind that matters the most (as i didn't prepared much for CAT this tym i didn't felt ny tension while appearing for the same and hence scored well atleast from the last tym wen i was well prepared)
The result for other colleges was also disclosed one by one and fortunately i got call from 2 symbiosis college. But being a fresher I was not even able to get thru these 2 avg colleges (u r free to call it an excuse bcoz it is :))
Finally I joined Fidelity Information Services, bangalore and decided to gain work ex and then do MBA; for it was the only option left. Then came CAT 2008, don't know y but my perseverance was lost and i didn't prepared much for the xam and gave it on the prescribed day. Was not expecting much after i left the center but after hearing the views of my frienz and people around me i turned optimistic (not very but yes i was now a bit hopeful).
CAT result was out and atleast i scored more than wat i did last yr :).Even unlike last yr i had not filled many colleges but this tym was expecting call from a college or two. And can u believe i have already got calls from 2 colleges and expecting a call from 1 more. But this tym i need to convert it at any cost for my excuse of fresher has already lost its validity...lol
PS: Its the state of mind that matters the most (as i didn't prepared much for CAT this tym i didn't felt ny tension while appearing for the same and hence scored well atleast from the last tym wen i was well prepared)
Nostalgia
Few days bak i watched "Taare Zameen Par" and was about to burst into tears if my friend wud not had been sitting besides me and somehow i controlled myself obviously due to fear of embarrassment (its in human nature u see) . But since then TZP has become my all tym favourite. The movie made me feel nostalgic of those old dayz wen i used to stay with my family at home. It was a gr8 feeling that had occured after such a long tym for i m away from my home since close to 5 yrs. Although i talk to my parents after every 2-3 dayz but that day i was really missing them.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
My First Blog
Although m not good at writing but still; i feel u don't always do wat u r good at
To commence my first blog, I would like to mention my present condition or situation watever it may b bcoz past is history so b it a mystery and moreover we shud b looking fwd towards wat lyf is goin to offer us :). Its now six, infact more than six months that i m working in the IT sector of a Florida based prestigious finance company named Fidelity Information Services Pvt Ltd (this is the way i put these lines to people when they ask me bout my work ex). I don't know whether it is the correct way of taking things but i reckon that ur almamater and all those places u had come through could not have been better than wat they had been or wat they r.
Even on this issue i had often met with an altercation with my roomie "A" bcoz he's not happy with his work (as it seems to me) and keeps on criticizing the company and blaming his fate. Although he's sometimes good at certain things but wen it cmes to discussion he always leave u frustated that in turn results in loosing ur temperament and retaliating. I strongly believe in taking things as they r instead of finding flaws in them. U r the one who is entirely responsible for every situation u r in; don't blame ur fate, nobody has tym writing ur damn fate.
I want to enjoy every moment of lyf; who knows wat r u goin to become in ur next reincarnation...lol...and who knows even animals mite b thinking the same way.
Whenever u feel small, think of all the good times u had. Enough of pedogogy i guess...:)
To commence my first blog, I would like to mention my present condition or situation watever it may b bcoz past is history so b it a mystery and moreover we shud b looking fwd towards wat lyf is goin to offer us :). Its now six, infact more than six months that i m working in the IT sector of a Florida based prestigious finance company named Fidelity Information Services Pvt Ltd (this is the way i put these lines to people when they ask me bout my work ex). I don't know whether it is the correct way of taking things but i reckon that ur almamater and all those places u had come through could not have been better than wat they had been or wat they r.
Even on this issue i had often met with an altercation with my roomie "A" bcoz he's not happy with his work (as it seems to me) and keeps on criticizing the company and blaming his fate. Although he's sometimes good at certain things but wen it cmes to discussion he always leave u frustated that in turn results in loosing ur temperament and retaliating. I strongly believe in taking things as they r instead of finding flaws in them. U r the one who is entirely responsible for every situation u r in; don't blame ur fate, nobody has tym writing ur damn fate.
I want to enjoy every moment of lyf; who knows wat r u goin to become in ur next reincarnation...lol...and who knows even animals mite b thinking the same way.
Whenever u feel small, think of all the good times u had. Enough of pedogogy i guess...:)
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